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Follow the Brown Rabbit...

In stories we've heard and seen, some followed a White Rabbit that led them to adventure. This time however,you've followed a BROWN one named Padawan. Pada lived in our house,hopped on tiled floor,ate under the table,urinated&defecated by the door leading outside,and outlived 11 others.
I name this Blog after him.The brown rabbit who shared the same skin color as his surrogate family.Resilient&adaptive.Adventurous in his own rabbit way. October 2002 - April 2007

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

everything comes back

When we lose things, whether simple or not, inexpensive ones or the priceless kind, we first think that they will come back somehow. But after some time, when they don't come back, we start to think... was it just denial that we were experiencing at the start?

Denial is that feeling that saves us from feeling low. When denial fades in the background, we begin to feel angry.

That's how I felt earlier. Angry. Anger addressed to noone in particular. Actually, to myself for my carelessness. I just felt angry at myself then I felt sad.

I was in denial for more than a week while searching everywhere possible and asking everyone I know who could have possibly seen it. But there was still no trace of it. The next stages of "grief", I all felt in one day. There wasn't any bargaining involved in between anger and sadness though. I was just sad.

This post is about my trusty 10-month-old Canon Ixus 65 and all the priceless photos in its memory card. The last time I used and saw it was last Thursday, August 30.

My friends know how happy I was when I decided to purchase my camera. It was something I bought with my hard-earned money last year. Within this past week, I heard some people telling me to buy another one but really, I don't want to and more importantly, I can't because it's not on top of my list right now. I don't buy things by whim because I can't. I plan when I buy because I am more kuripot than most people think.

So looking back, I worked hard for my camera, planned on getting it by canvassing around, and bought it when it was time to do so. It was one of the few things that I could proudly call mine because it was not merely handed to me by my parents or by anyone else as a gift. And because of that, it has turned priceless for me, along with the photos inside it.

I did not mean to write such a long post on this one. But I'm human and this is how I truly feel. I may sometimes sound like I'm joking or may still be smiling when I say that I couldn't find my camera, but today, I just felt this. And I just had to share.

I believe that people are naturally kind-hearted. I'd like to believe that if someone finds something that is not his or hers, that person would return that something to the rightful owner. I'd like to believe that in this world, kind-hearted and honest people exist. And that's why I
believe the things we lose just come back somehow.

My sister woke me up from my dreamy state when she told me that my camera was filled with my photos. If someone had already seen it, he/she would have returned it by now especially because the places where it could have possibly fell off were places with people I know. And that of course comes along with the "realistic assumption" that by this time, someone was bound to have seen it.

After thinking some more, I came out with this: Either nobody has seen it yet or someone has seen it but doesn't know what to do or where to return. If not those two, there may be persons who are not necessarily bad but may just be needing something for a short while but because they originally still have a good heart, they return what they find when they're ready to do so. And if it's still not any of those, maybe a spirit did play with it, and I hope he/she returns it to me.

To whoever finds and returns what I am looking for, my deepest gratitude in advance.

This is my way of asking the universe. And my way of affirming that good things come to those who believe.

Anonymous Anonymous said...

oh no that's why pala may "imiss my camera!!"

=(

-carmie

September 12, 2007 10:53 AM  
Blogger ~LALA said...

Hi Carmie dear, yes that's why I miss my camera :c.

I just know I'm bound to find it soon. (*that's the spirit!!!*)

See you soon, mmwah!

September 12, 2007 2:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

sheesh!

that was a *bad* day indeed. finding out that you lost your camera and the precious memories it captured. =(

i hope you get it back soon, lala. and yes good things come to those who believe.

pag wala pa rin nagbalik remember better things come to those who let go.

*hugs*

love,
*T*

September 14, 2007 12:02 PM  
Blogger Dr.Peppermint said...

oh no :(

September 14, 2007 3:18 PM  
Blogger ~LALA said...

Hi Tien and Dr. Pepper! :)

Thanks for leaving your messages!

Tien, I love what you wrote: remember better things come to those who let go. THANK YOU for this. :)

September 20, 2007 4:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

no problem, lala. =)

p.s. my xanga site is temporarily *locked*. if you happen to drop by, the same username and password for the *protected* entries will unlock it for you.

have a great weekend!

September 21, 2007 11:14 AM  
Blogger Pj said...

ei lala... so sad to know that you lost your camera...

but don't worry, it will be replaced by a better one...

or something good will happen to you... or you will receive something...

cheer up. :o)

September 24, 2007 4:18 AM  
Blogger ~LALA said...

PJ,

Thanks! I know this is a really late reply (sorry) but yup, I'm cheerful. :) thank you for your msg and well wishes!

October 05, 2007 7:10 PM  

Piso for your thoughts!

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